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Just once, I'd like to have someone on the same track as I am.
I like to have things laid out in my mind, the reasons for and against, the options and the drawbacks. I like to make decisions only once I think I've got a handle on things, once I have solid reasons for doing things. I'm a private person, I know that. I don't ask opinions or share things very often. Still there are times when it's good to share, to get input from others. The world is full of stories of people who have soul mates who have an uncanny ability to know and understand them. Family and friends who always say the right thing and help make hard decisions easier.
Yeah, right.
No matter which way I choose to go, everyone has reasons for me to go the other. People are wonderfully supportive of me... just supportive of me doing the exact opposite of what I just decided. I say hot, and they say cold. I think high is great and everyone is choosing low. I want to go west and everyone is singing the praises of east.
I think "that might work" and while people agree it's possible, they agree more that it the drawbacks aren't worth it. Just when I decide "too many drawbacks", everyone is rallying around with reasons to go for it and ways to get past the drawbacks. Why are my decisions wrong only after I've made them, but not when I'm considering them?
It's like I'm living in a slightly different dimension... all the circumstances are the same, the same logic applies, cause and effect are still working, only I'm turned 180 degrees from everyone else.
There are times when it really sucks.
I like to have things laid out in my mind, the reasons for and against, the options and the drawbacks. I like to make decisions only once I think I've got a handle on things, once I have solid reasons for doing things. I'm a private person, I know that. I don't ask opinions or share things very often. Still there are times when it's good to share, to get input from others. The world is full of stories of people who have soul mates who have an uncanny ability to know and understand them. Family and friends who always say the right thing and help make hard decisions easier.
Yeah, right.
No matter which way I choose to go, everyone has reasons for me to go the other. People are wonderfully supportive of me... just supportive of me doing the exact opposite of what I just decided. I say hot, and they say cold. I think high is great and everyone is choosing low. I want to go west and everyone is singing the praises of east.
I think "that might work" and while people agree it's possible, they agree more that it the drawbacks aren't worth it. Just when I decide "too many drawbacks", everyone is rallying around with reasons to go for it and ways to get past the drawbacks. Why are my decisions wrong only after I've made them, but not when I'm considering them?
It's like I'm living in a slightly different dimension... all the circumstances are the same, the same logic applies, cause and effect are still working, only I'm turned 180 degrees from everyone else.
There are times when it really sucks.
