*So* not good at handling this...

I just can't keep perspective on this not employed thing. And the possible employment thing? That's even harder for me to deal with.

My job with the school ends tomorrow. I need another job. I'd like a good one, but I need any kind of a job. I desperately, fervently want to do the job I have been doing.

There are just too many things that I have no control over that affect my life. Usually, I don't let that bother me.

Today...

so can't handle it.