I really need an "I'm Made of Fail" icon...

I joined a couple of challenge communities, to help keep me from being to introspective (see last post for problems with that).

It's failing.

With xoverland I did some of the puzzles, but forgot to post my results before the deadline. Then I wrote a couple of ficlet and got them posted in time -- except my computer froze on me, so it ended up posting 30 minutes past deadline. Fine. What I don't understand is how I managed to get lost in the voting polls. I know I voted for team icons, but not according to the polls. According to the polls, I only entered which team I'm with. What? How does that happen? I would ask why does this happen, but I know why. I'm made of fail.

I am so made of fail, that I don't even have to do anything. Nope. I just radiate "made of fail" vibes and it infects everything around me.

Take, for example, when I joined caperland. It's all about Burn Notice, Leverage and White collar. What could be better? Kept an eye on the community, only it never posted anything. I figured they were holding off until the start of the new season. Nope. What happened was I got dropped of the community. They have been happily going on about challenges and I'm out of it all. When I signed up they sent me invites to the necessary communities, and I joined them. But now, I'm not a member. I'm not even watching them. What? How does does one get booted out of a community? I would ask why does this happen, but I know why. My "made of fail" vibes did it. I didn't even get a chance to miss deadlines or do things wrong, mope that got taken care of without me doing anything at all.

I've been running a low-grade fever all day (this also contributed to my previous post). I feel like hell and I can't sleep. I'm smart enough not to try to fulfill any challenges in my current state -- I'm sure my "made of fail" vibe is at an all time high. I'm pretty sure that I won't be able to post this entry without problems -- especially since I've lost it once already.

I'm really hoping that today is a better day. I think I'll start off by trying to sleep.

Better...

Or at least not made completely of fail.

I am feeling slightly better. Still have the same problems as yesterday (not going into it because of TMI) but I'm handling it better. Of course, I'm slightly more drugged up today then yesterday, but I think that just proves I'm beginning to get smart. I should note that I haven't actually eaten anything toady. I'm not overly hungry nor am I feeling low blood sugar. Not sure what that means, but I think I will eat so I keep feeling better.

Right now I'm helping Myr do her Latin. She's stressing and I'm providing stress relief. It's hard, but I know that she'll do well.

Spent some time with my mom. Put flowers on the cemetery. Bought flowers and veggies to put out around here. I need to pick up some soil to plant everything tomorrow, so I didn't have to work too hard. I'm hoping that I feel this much better tomorrow again because that would make everything easier.

Right now, I'm trying not to think about anything too much. Thinking leads to trouble.

New Motto: Don't think. Just do.