Ramblings

[partly]

I should be writing something. ANYTHING. Right now I'd settle for being able to respond in an semi-intelligent (Hell, even a NON-intelligent) way to the wonderful posts that I see on my "friends" page. But I can't.

I'm way off-center lately. I'm lucky I can get my act together enough to have a real-life conversation (except I'm much better at faking normalcy in real-time life). I suppose I could blame it on the general craziness of Christmas and the insane schedule that I keep and all the stuff I have to do. Maybe even a touch of winter depression.

But I know that it has to do with my jury duty. It left me -- uncertain and strangely obsessive. About things not even connected to the trial. Wil said that if it's bothering me, we should find someone to talk it out with... only I can't possibly talk to anyone about it until I can figure out what I need to talk about. And once that happens, I won't need to talk to anyone about it. My personal psychological Catch 22.

Anyhow... I have been delving into RotK. Which, in turn, is helping to get me thinking about BreckenHaven. It also helps that I managed to get all my laundry done and my house cleaned. Well, mostly picked up. Heh.

I did run across this quote about RotK that I really liked (It's from a review of, all things, Cold Mountain.):

I've seen Samwise Gamgee carrying Frodo Baggins up the slopes of Mount Doom. I've seen Faramir, captain of Gondor, ride to what he believes will be his death merely to earn the love of his father. I've seen Peregrin Took leap onto a burning pyre to save a dying man he doesn't know in repayment for a debt owed that man's dead brother. I've seen an entire world shrink into molecules of fading hope and acts of selfless love.

That is, in a nutshell, what I love about LotR. Both the movie and the book.

And all those wonderful themes are why I want to write. Love, truth, honesty, sacrifice, loyalty, all that is "good and noble". That's what books and movies should be about.

No. That's what life should be about.

Comments

[oghram.livejournal.com]

We'll be here when you come about lass, center up at your pace. I hope it's soon for your benefit.

[lynneski.livejournal.com]

Hugs to you! I've gone through those times when you need to figure out what is bothering you so you can get help figuring out what is bothering you...it creates such a vicious circle of trying to figure things out. Me, I write in my (non-livejournal) journal every night before I go to bed. I work hard at not sensoring myself..sometimes it's very boring this is what I did today, and sometimes it's very stream of conciousness stuff that helps me get whatever it is that is bugging my out of my head. I've gotten to the point now that I can't go to sleep without writing at least something...I've only missed one night in the last 2 years.

Not sure if any of this is helpful or if it's just me rambling...but thought I would share because I'm not always that good about commenting on things I read on my "friends" page either...but then again, neither are my friends...can't remember the last time someone commented on one of my posts...I having decided if I'm just very very boring or if everyone else is busy or lazy. hehehe

Be well, the writing will happen when it's suppose to.