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I am insanely ADD today. Nothing can hold my attention. I want be entertained/distracted every single minute preferably by different things. And preferably by things that have nothing to do with my job.
Also? So easily frustrated. The simplest problem makes me want to bring out my sledgehammer and beat the offending object into submission. I know this, so I am tempering all of my reactions because I don't want to overreact.
That, of course, means that I am unable to react as quickly and decisively as I need to. Which just makes the initial problem that much worse. And because I am the cause of that additional aggravation, I try to be even more understanding, which does. not. work.
In the end, I am ineffectual and chaos reigns.
My frustration mounts.
I realize that the typical reaction to frustration (especially for women) is to become emotional and teary. I rarely have that reaction. Instead I becomeangry intense. I tend to want to rid myself of these problems. Now, my impulse control is very good, so this doesn't result in problems. However, when dealing with children that reaction, no matter how well contained, is bad.
Am so very glad that it is time to go home.
I just hope my family can survive me tonight.
ETA: The fact that I sent this post twice before I was finished with it and then still needed to go back and edit mistakes, does not bode well for me, tonight.
Also? So easily frustrated. The simplest problem makes me want to bring out my sledgehammer and beat the offending object into submission. I know this, so I am tempering all of my reactions because I don't want to overreact.
That, of course, means that I am unable to react as quickly and decisively as I need to. Which just makes the initial problem that much worse. And because I am the cause of that additional aggravation, I try to be even more understanding, which does. not. work.
In the end, I am ineffectual and chaos reigns.
My frustration mounts.
I realize that the typical reaction to frustration (especially for women) is to become emotional and teary. I rarely have that reaction. Instead I become
Am so very glad that it is time to go home.
I just hope my family can survive me tonight.
ETA: The fact that I sent this post twice before I was finished with it and then still needed to go back and edit mistakes, does not bode well for me, tonight.
