partly

I'm the type of person who knows what I feel about most everything and if you want to know what that opinion is, I'll be glad to tell you. I can usually articulate my feelings and thoughts about things with no problems.

Lately, however, when I manage to string the thoughts into words, they end up not being right. I mean, I don't think they're right. There is this gap between what I'm about to say or write and what I want to say. And I can't figure out how to fix them. This inexplicable disconnect is starting to drive me nuts.

I don't know if this inability to communicate is because I really don't know what I feel or if I just don't want anyone else to know. Or if simply, as usual, there are more important things to deal with. There are things that are the way they are. There's no "fixing" them because nothing's broken. And railing against the unfairness of it all is selfish. Life is unfair. Being petty not only won't change that, it'll just make it worse.

I guess what I'm really trying to say is...

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Yeah. Need to work on that.