Blue...

[partly]

The day has left me feeling blue.

Today was the last day of my temp job with the Veterans Office here in town. I liked the job. I liked the people I worked with. I liked helping people. I loved the challenge of learning a hundred new things a day. I don't get that tomorrow.

I missed out on going down with Wil and Myr to Madison. I love the ride down, the time to talk with them and discuss everything. Wil came back without Myr, who is spending more time with her grandparents. I missed a good meal and Christmas happiness down there.

I'm feeling petty about things that don't matter and I'm not sure why that is. I'm letting things bother me when I know that there was really no choice other than the one that I made. I'm actually thinking that it would have been easier just to go along. Not better, but easier. I never go with the easy road.

My rules the the night

I will not second guess my decisions, just because they are unpopular.

I will be the bad guy if it is necessary for my daughter to be happier and feel safer.

I will not feel guilty for not trying harder when the other side doesn't try at all.

I will accept what is offered with good graces and non-judgment.

I will not play petty games of control or engage in passive-aggressive behavior just because it it the choice of others.

I will remember that my daughter and her happiness is more important to me than anyone else's.

And then I should be good, right?

That and sleep.